This is an excerpt from “My Transcendental Meditation Journey” by Geri Hirsch, originally published on her blog Because I’m Addicted.
I wish I could say that meditating became part of my life because I downloaded an app or felt an internal craving for it, but for me, my meditation practice came out of necessity. That necessity was my struggle with post-traumatic stress disorder.
Ten months after I got married to the man of my dreams, my husband, Darin, went out for his morning run—something he did daily. But instead of returning home like usual, Darin was found lifeless on the sidewalk by a passerby who then called 911. He was revived by a sheriff and rushed to the hospital where they determined my young, healthy guy went into cardiac arrest. They performed heart surgery on him immediately, then he spent days in a coma. I found myself in the most stressful, traumatic, unstable state of my life, something I’d find would last for quite some time.
By the grace of all the positive vibes in the world, three weeks later, Darin and I walked out of that hospital hand in hand. He was perfect, and he would be okay; it was truly a miracle, and there are no words to describe the level of gratitude I have day in and day out based on his recovery, but the aftermath was a struggle.
Once we returned home, I stopped sleeping (something I was really good at up until this point). I literally watched him breathe all night long, counting his breaths into the thousands until I’d doze off, wake up panicked, then start the counting over again. I was constantly worried, and even though he lived and was totally fine, my nervous system wouldn’t unwind. I was stressed ALL the time. Even when I was with Darin doing the things we loved, or nothing at all, I was as tense as could be. I was in constant fear that I was going to lose him, and my mind couldn’t shake the graphic images from the time we spent in intensive care.
I had PTSD, and I needed help.
Meanwhile, one of my husband’s friends got him a Transcendental Meditation class as a get-well gift. My husband, who was already as calm and cool as a cucumber, took to it like a Zen Buddha. After the four-day class, he was meditating daily, and I could feel his calmness—which made me feel crazier because I was so uncharacteristically frantic.
Two months later, he convinced me to take the class myself, and so I did.
When people ask me why I like [Transcendental Meditation], there’s only one way I can explain it: We spend our entire lives in our bodies, but we don’t actually spend much time with ourselves. We’re constantly going, going, going, and doing, doing, doing, and rarely stop—I mean TRULY stop—to focus and get in touch with our thoughts. TM is that time; it’s the chance to check in with your mind. It’s 20 minutes to be one with myself and my thoughts, which helps bring great clarity and peace. (TM is generally done twice a day, in the morning before any caffeine and then again later in the afternoon).
The idea that a daily practice helps with PTSD (or stress in general) is not only backed by me—but by science as well. Neuroscientists have found that during TM practice, the brain produces high-power alpha waves. This distinct brain pattern corresponds to the state of relaxed inner wakefulness—serenity, expansion, and bliss. It also reduces stress hormones by activating the “tend-and-befriend” or “rest-and-digest” functions of the parasympathetic nervous system, while calming the sympathetic nervous system, which stimulates the “fight-or-flight” response.
Besides helping with my PTSD, I feel a general sense of calm thanks to my practice. It’s also left me extremely energized, which was an added bonus I wasn’t necessarily aware of.
In addition to her work on Because I’m Addicted, Geri Hirsch is the Creative Director and on the founding team of the luxury clean makeup line, Saie Beauty. She also helps to run her family-owned coffee shop in Los Angeles called Neighborhood.